Honestly this has been the first theme that I have really struggled with here at Kinwomen. We have been going now for three years and a few months. Each month, a new theme and I have been found here writing. This month I have sat page open, words very few.
The reason why this theme of identity has been a wrestle is because I often question who I really am.
In a world that demands perfection, brilliance and excellence. I question often.
I know some of the big things.
I remember significant times of revelation and also significant seasons of confusion.
I am often swayed by what someone says about me.
I can be found processing my days in my head and trying to find clarity.
Honestly this is the true me.
I’m a thinker, a dreamer, an optimist and insecure.
I am bold, creative and often hesitant.
I am a stay at home Mum and at the same time a business owner.
It is funny the things I should be saying that define me in comparison to that which truely does.
I wish I could write that I’m steady and strong, impacted everyday knowing that I am a child of God but the truth is I have to remind myself often and realign my sense of worth by His truth not my own.
How about you?
I wish I could write a big speech about how important it is that we all know who we are and what we stand for, but sometimes I struggle.
And that is okay.
How about you?
What are you believing about yourself in this season?
Are you clear?
Does it feel fuzzy?
No matter where your focus lies, my hope is that you would wrestle towards truly knowing who has the end of your story and how deeply you are loved.
Known and Loved, these are two things I need to remind myself on those days that I wrestle.