If I could tell the world just one thing it would be that we’re all ok.
And not to worry because worry is wasteful and useless in times like these.
I wont be idled with despair. I will gather myself around my faith. For light does the darkness most fear. Jewel
As I lay awake in bed at night thinking about my brother who recently passed from Leukemia I have this running theme song playing in my head, reminding me when you’re hit with unexpected tragedy it doesn’t help to worry and be idled with despair.
To have faith in God. He is still in control.
Light the darkness most fears. Good will triumph over evil.
Only kindness matters.
I need to be kind to myself. There is a time for grieving and there will be days of heartache and dealing with the pain of loss.
It’s just a moment, this time will pass.
One thing my Mother taught me as I got older was not to let my emotions rule my life. Not to let them define me. I can choose to stay on the train of worry and defeat but I am capable of getting off that train. I’m not talking about being emotionless and unrealistic with grief but letting peace be my guide instead.
I was privileged to have time to properly say good bye to my brother. As hard as that was we exchanged some very beautiful, personal words that brought so much peace to my mind of his future in eternity.
Today in the midst of my grief I choose peace over worry. I choose faith over fear.