reinventing my courage



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Honesty is always my best policy, but to be honest here is to be extremely vulnerable.

My name is Amanda and I have wrestled with doubt over the last few months and some days it actually won. There are many reasons for the wrestle, there have been circumstances beyond control, yet the walk has been real. Courage has been waiting for me and it is only today that I have made the connection that it may have left the building.

From launching a new business, to loosing two gorgeous young friends tragically, with two unexpected surgeries and facing my daily life with two littles. With a breath of perspective one could say our family has been walking a battle, but truthfully I am learning this is just normal for those seeking to live a life that is surrendered.

Big times come and small things annoy.

Tragedy is awaiting and victory can be found.

Breakthrough comes swiftly and other days patience is taunting us.

How did the beginning of twenty sixteen look for you?

Do you have a list of problems that are desperately asking for reinvention?

Do you have a goal that has laid unfulfilled year in and year out and finding the courage to believe again is waning?

I know that feeling. I know it well.

Today I woke with Monday on my mind, I wrote a simple list. My reinvention list and I asked my heart to find its courage again, in the midst of sweeping the floors and washing our towels. I dug deep.

I wrestled with doubt.

I reinvented little parts of my day that will help me find perspective again.

My list looked a little like this

Drink more water

Walk the beach everyday

Listen to podcasts daily

Sunday phone free

Take camera off auto

Fill my house with music

Black coffee

Skip the bread

Herbal tea for dessert

Nine little thoughts that help bring a bit of space into my weekly ritual.

Routines that are open enough to feel inspiring, yet simple enough to make a difference.

Every year, in the first weeks of a new season I take time to write and reflect with this tool I created with questions that I designed over a decade ago. To read the journalling that I have done every year for thirteen years is a telling awakening to the bigger picture of why I struggle with some goals and really nail others.

I am facing my weakness with kindness this year and reinventing with courage the things that I give preference to in my days.

I am taking small steps towards victory by being more intentional with my yes and no.

I am praying silently that the risks we are taking are wise and asking that courage is found in the leap.

And this little scripture helped me reinvent my courage today and find space to believe again.

For God has not given us a spirit of timidity, but of power and love and discipline.… 2 Tim 1:6

The word reinvention can seem overwhelmingly intimidating, but sometimes my friend it is the smallest things that we bring change to that make the greatest difference.

Like drinking a glass of water, like filling our house with beautiful music rather than yelling, finding a new hobby, saying no to the things that bloat you, listening to the inspiration of others, laying our phones down and listening.

Small but vital.

Courageous and simple.

Reinvention is not actually as big as it sounds, when we take time to remember who we are and what is important and stepping with baby steps into the good that is available to all of us.

Happy New Year, Kin women.

It is a privilege to spend my days thinking of you.

Amanda

{If you would like to find out more about Amanda and her world, jump over to her website at amandaviviers.com and stay awhile.}


About Amanda

Amanda Viviers Is an Author, Speaker, Creative Consultant and Novice Mum. Author of three books and she can be found most days at her shack close to the beach writing her fourth. She writes daily at www.amandaviviers.com and has worked in professional musical theatre. She worked on staff at Riverview for 12 years, mostly in the field of Creative Arts. Finalist in the Telstra Young Business Woman of the year and Community Services Award. She has a Bachelor of Arts majoring in History and Literature and studied Musical Theatre at WAPPA. She is a presenter on radio across New Zealand and Australia and is the co-founder of kinwomen; a network created especially for women. Recent Winner of ‘2013 CMA Best Digital Media Project Award’ for her blog Capture life. She is passionate about social justice and in the past has loved supporting children in the slums of Thailand and Indonesia. Wife of Charl and Mum of Maximus and Liberty. She lives a creative life, longing to see people lived inspired.